This has been such an emotionally fraught reading week.

There’s so much that I don’t quite know how to put into words.

Things went okay with gIbuwlm last night. He’s being all sweet and apologetic and generous to try to make up for the way he treated me, but it’s not the kind of thing that contrition and gifts and an expensive dinner can make up for. The thing is, I don’t know how he can.

We were friends for a long time. And he still wants to be, it’s just – I don’t know if I can do it. Or if I should.

Today, I needed a vacation from intensity. After going to two movies* and out to dinner and basically running around all day yesterday, today, I went to the dentist, ate lunch with my brother and then watched TV and pretended I had no worries, especially not about all the schoolwork I was going to be doing.

*Chaplin’s The Circus with live organist accompaniment in the afternoon and then Triplets of Belleville at night.