Archive for April, 2005

Every time you close your eyes

So, the Arcade Fire concert was pretty amazing.
BOTH the opening acts were excellent, to the point where I was thinking “Hey, this is really great,” as opposed to “When is the Arcade Fire coming on?”
Final Fantasy is basically this guy who plays the violin and loops stuff and sings, but it’s better than that makes it sound. The highlight of his set was undoubtedly the Mariah Carey cover (“Fantasy,” which is on the first CD I ever owned–kismet?) with special guest star Gentleman Reg (!).
Wolf Parade: also awesome.
The Arcade Fire themselves were completely everything I expected and more. It’s rare to hear a band that sounds that good, looks that good on stage and is obviously having that much fun.
Oh yeah, and they played TWO ENCORES, the second ending with the band in a procession around the theatre, even the balcony, occasionally trailing guitar chords.

Oh, and I’m pretty sure I saw Andy Kim on the way out, hanging out by the sound booth, waiting for a chance to compliment the kids on their work. Sugar sugar.

Then, we walked home in the rain.

Deep breaths

Finishing my last assignment (one exam left) is really bringing on the stress.

Last time I had a panic attack with full-on crying, pacing, freaking out and having to take deep breaths and talk myself down over schoolwork…

oh wait.

That was NEVER.

Maybe I really don’t want to leave school.

Some of these have to be doubles. Oregano?

I’m supposed to be working on my take-home test (second-last university thing ever) but currently am watching Gilmore Girls and brushing up my Bejeweled skills.

Much as I love school and much as I’ve always talked about grad school, suddenly, now that I’m almost done, it’s like pulling teeth to get me to do any work at all.

So, I’m kind of hatching a new plan: entrepreneurship.
I can completely picture myself running a funky little video store, with a great collection, quirky categories and a lending library of books on film and fiction. And maybe after a couple years I could add an espresso bar in the back.
I mean, I know DVDs could be on the way out, by the time I can actually afford a store there might not be money in it anymore, or everyone might be getting them mailed by Netflix or whatever, but I could sell something else.
Or have a coffee shop. I could still have the lending library.

I know, you’re thinking “Brenda, you have a film and English degree, what do you know about running a business?” But, despite my love of Virginia Woolf and Jim Jarmusch, and being half of a couple that has in-jokes about Foucault, I’m actually pretty good with the numbers and understanding the practical. My actual job that I get paid is mainly accounting-based. For a small business. Which means I get to see how everything works.
(I actually kind of come from a commerce family: my mom worked in a bank before I was born, my dad is CA, my aunt is a bank VP, my uncle is an economics prof, etc.)

The store dream would give my artsy side and my practical side would be serving a common goal.

Plus, I would get to be the boss.

The more I think about it, the more sense it makes.

But no, dad, I’m still not getting an MBA.

Up on Cripple Creek

All I’ve done since getting back home is cook, eat, and sleep.

I spent most of my afternoon making chocolate-raspberry torte for my brother.

The ingredients included bittersweet chocolate, semisweet chocolate chips, raspberry jam, sour cream, whipping cream, coffee, and Kaluha, so you can imagine how popular a sibling I was last night.

This morning we slept in and then made waffles which we put strawberries on and bacon.

I’m a genius.

We Both Go Down Together, or I Hope I Cut Myself Shaving Tomorrow

The place: our new friend’s apartment. The time: Sunday night. A party of sorts is happening around us.

Friend: You should totally see his first film. We’re planning on having you guys to dinner soon. If you don’t think an austere three-hour movie would kill the mood too much…

Me: That’s like every date we’ve ever been on. [sips drink] We watched Alphaville on our second date.

[laughter]

Friend: And there was a third?

Alex: Actually, our first ‘real’ date was going to see a Wagner opera. One of the Ring Cycle.

Aaand scene.

I tell this story because, today, I was asking myself when we became that couple.

Due to recent ticket acquisition, we will be seeing all of these bands within the same thirty-day period:
1. The Arcade Fire
2. The Mountain Goats
3. The Decemberists

I could not be more musically excited unless, like, Wilco and Le Tigre decided to play a double bill in my backyard.

This might even trump that weekend in the summer of ‘03 when I saw both Ani DiFranco and Elvis Costello* in the same weekend at the Calgary Folk Festival.

We are so that couple.

*I’m disappointed in you, readership. Not one of you seemed to get the E.C. joke in the last post.

I know it don’t thrill you I hope it don’t kill you

Now that I’m a full time working girl, I’m learning to generate month-end reports.
Daddy would be so proud.

“Welcome to the working week,” my music theorist-cum-office clerk coworker said this morning. After I shuffled in late, the evidence having gone to a party and then writing my genre paper in clear effect.

“Hah,” I said. “Ha ha.”

How whole years refuse to stay where we told them to

My birthday managed to fall on the last day of classes for the second year in a row, which is convenient, because this usually means that there’s free beer involved. (Last year it was an open bar luncheon, at which one guy actually got CUT OFF.) This year, because I had to give up student journalism to, uh, finish school, we had the Trin quad party.

Party
Guy: “Are you on the guest list?”
Alex: “There’s a guest list? We were supposed to sign up in advance?”
Guy: “Yeah, it was announced at lunches and dinners.”
Alex: “Uh, I’m non-res. How was I supposed to know?”
Guy gives us the sheet and lets Alex write in my name. Then he checks my ID to make sure it matches the given name and gives us some wristbands. Then, crosses my name off with the same pen, so it was clear that I had arrived.
The Quad party was full of the usual strangeness that engenders the Trin party for me. Nonetheless, the beer was free and there were also lots of small baked goods. (For some reason, aside from the usual assortment of chips and Cheetos, there was also both mini-croissants and mini-bagels. Why, I do not know.)
Afterwards, we headed over to Gabby’s for my official celebrations. It’s such a busy time of year and I didn’t send out invites until earlier in the week, so I was pretty much glad that anyone showed up. I definitely had a good time, which is all that really counts.

I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you every day for a year.
Yesterday was a day Alex and I had set aside for quality time. Friday was, besides my last day or undergrad classes and my 22nd birthday, also, our anniversary, but that was just too much stuff to celebrate in one day. We didn’t really do anything romantic (unless watching The Notebook counts, but I don’t think it does, because of the egregious badness of the first half hour, the less egregious slowness of the rest of the movie, the way Rachel McAdams would NOT STOP LAUGHING, and the depressingness of the ending), but we did have a really nice, really relaxing day, which we wrapped up with big fun.

Big Fun
Big fun was the Constantines/Weakerthans show, which definitely represented a high fun quotient. We missed the openers, but got there just in time for the Constantines’ sound check.
The first half of the bill really surprised me: I’d listened to the Constantines’ album a couple of times based on their local popularity, but I really never got into it. Their live show is a whole other story. I don’t know if it was just because they’re really fun performers or because they used less distortion, but damn. Also, the lead singer managed to break his mic stand and have his guitar come unstrapped over the course of the first song, which is very rock n’ roll. Also, the part where everyone raised their hands during “Shine a Light” was really special.
The Weakerthans were, unsurprisingly, awesome. I didn’t really start listening to them until first year, but they’ve probably been one my most listened-to bands of university, so it’s sort of fitting that I’d go to see them the day after classes ended. The thing about the Weakerthans is, all their songs are good. Every song they start playing, I find myself saying “Hey, I love this song.”
I probably could have done without the girls behind me who sang along loudly to basically EVERY SONG, including “Left and Leaving,” which is really not a singalong tune. It’s not like “One Great City!” where it’s basically expected that everyone sings along with the “I hate Winnipeg” part. However, on the whole, the fun levels were high. The Weakerthans (and the Constantines, for that matter) obviously really enjoy playing together and the fact that that one superenthusiastic guy in the front row clapped along to EVERY song.

The best part was that, for the encore, the Weakerthans had the Constantines come out for one last song, and then they covered “End of the Line,” by the Travelling Wilburys. Heh.

22

Birthdays are always kind of anticlimactic.

I hope people come tonight.

Laissez Tomber Les Filles

I have various kinds of news, but I also have loads and loads of work to do.

But the big one: I have put down a deposit on an apartment. It is the third floor of a house, the rent represents much less than half of my projected monthly income, it is in the Bloor-Ossington region (which effectively halves my commute), and it has a balcony. The living room is a decent size, the bedroom with comfortably hold a double, and it has a gas stove in the tiny tiny kitchen. So excited, so scared.

I am looking forward to filling the place with furniture and knicknacks. (I’m thinking of doing a record-cover wall-hanging, as seen in the new Bust with really cheap albums. Possibly all Nana Mouskouri.)



I have to write two essays in the next week, plus write a totally impossible test.

Hey, remember when I conceived, researched and wrote an entire essay in two days, start to finish? I got an A-. Everytime I promise myself I will not pull stunts such as conceiving, researching and writing an entire essay in two days, something like this happens, and I decide not to change my ways because things always work out in the end.

In other news, why did no one ever tell me about April March? Francophile indiepop! I feel like the world has been holding out on me.

Don’t feel so alone, got the radio on

like to keep you up to date when it comes to my coffee drinking exploits. I feel like I’ve been cheating on my college café guy; I haven’t been there in days. I did go twice on Tuesday though.
My reason involves having to use my credit card because I can’t take out cash because I put down my deposit on my new apartment tonight. There will apparently be new tiles when I come back and apparently new living room walls? I’m excited.

Anyway, today, after months (years) of staring at it sitting there on the menu and my renewed frequenting of Second Cup because there’s one at either of my possible work subway stops, I finally ordered the “Red Eye.”
The Red Eye is a cup of coffee with a shot of espresso in it. As in, “How would you like your coffee, miss?” “With more coffee, thanks.” The coffee girl was like “I don’t know how you can drink that.” With relish, dear. And cream.
Damn, I have not become noticeably perkier from a single cup of coffee in years. Less, cranky, I guess, which is part of the continuum. It’s a rich tapestry.
But man, did I ever roll that pay this week.

In other news, I’ve been so stressed with apartment-hunting and homework-doing to notice that my birthday is in a week. As in, on Friday, April 8. As in, the last day of classes. I haven’t really hammered an official plan, but something is definitely happening, and it will most likely involve Gabby’s or similar. Pencil me in.