Orientation
When I was getting ready to leave Toronto, I got so concerned about saying goodbyes and missing my old neighbourhood landmarks: the (now-closed) Paradise, the Portuguese bakery, the good falafel place, the walnut cake shop, Clafouti, . My friends. The way the afternoon light shone through my living room. All the places I didn’t get a chance to go, things I didn’t get a chance to do. And I do. Miss the things.
When I moved to Toronto from Calgary, I was wrenchingly homesick. I’d had a great summer, I had a boyfriend I loved and wasn’t ready to let go of yet. I knew that this was the start of things, but I wasn’t prepared to let go of the things that I’d left behind. I didn’t have a really bad adolescence, but a lot of the time, I wasn’t doing things I really wanted to be doing. (Or I was doing them, and nobody got it, because I was a weird kid and my love of old Hollywood musicals really didn’t impress of the cool kids. Or…any of the dorky kids.) So coming to Toronto was hard. It wasn’t just that I hated orientation (which I did) — living in res, you basically couldn’t avoid people dressing you up in crazy clothes and making you march around doing stupid chants. But it was more than that. Toronto was hard to take. U of T’s right downtown and it was really different from Calgary. There was no space; there were no trees; there was nowhere I could go to just be alone. It was a really miserable time for me. My assigned roommate was shaping up to be a total disaster and I was too young to get into bars.
I’m telling you all this instead of telling you about Vancouver because I want to make it clear how braced I was for Vancouver being new and scary and having to adjust. I thought it would be difficult and I would be, like, unhappy at first. And miss Toronto. But, you know what? I like it here. The pleasant weather? The year-round greenery? The numerous decent coffee shops? The way everybody’s a little bit more laidback and even our moving delivery guy was wearing a fleece jacket and shorts? How my apartment is close to a surprisingly international mix of restaurants? The way that my apartment has two (two!) balconies and I can actually use them most of the year? The abundant availability of fresh local produce? What’s not to like? I could honestly see myself being really happy here.
I feel kind of like my inner Annie Hall has betrayed my inner Alvy Singer.
As for school, well, because of Labour Day and my schedule I haven’t really had any classes yet, except the lecture for the second-year class I’m TAing. The prof is really good and enthusiastic, but is also — and I mean this in the best way possible — absolutely what you picture when you think “Vancouver hippie film prof.” He called Harper and Bush retards in the first class. Fortuitously, my co-TA was in my year at U of T, so it was really nice to see a familiar face. Especially a familiar face who’s willing to take you on a campus tour tomorrow and offer up his email to answer any questions and help you with scary grad-student stuff. Like applying for grant applications.
Anyway, I have to like, be a TA tomorrow. Sleep.
Rach on 07 Sep 2006 at 8:47 am #
Aw. I’m glad you like it. To be honest, I was much more worried about Alex’s transition/culture shock than yours, really.
I’m really going to be curious about how you deal with the winters though; I thought I’d be all over the “no snow” thing, but the constant rain was harder to deal with that I thought it would be.
Also, though you like it there, you are bound to mock any Vancouverites who whine about the mere dusting of snow they can get. Give them exasperated looks and roll your eyes, and mutter, “Are you even Canadian?”
Really, the sense of superiority you get from that feels great. ;)
Wrenkin on 07 Sep 2006 at 12:19 pm #
I’m fine… it’s very pleasant. I just don’t like having to take the bus everywhere. It’s fast and frequent, but I just find the ride less pleasant than a streetcar or subway. Today I might assemble my bike.
brenda on 07 Sep 2006 at 9:08 pm #
Yeah, I mean, I don’t think I’ll necessarily want to like, settle here, but I sort of have an easier time of it than Alex, due to school being a convenient way to meet people. (Most of whom are Ontario expats anyway.)
I dunno, I mean, it’s pretty and the air quality’s good.